So I had an experience tonight that made my heart hurt, a lot.
You hear people talk about the rock and the hard place like those are actual things... places.
And they most definitely are. Because I see the problem, and I.... I just don't know how to fix it.
I know how to try and make it better, but I've tried in the past, and it's never worked out.
But I hate what's happening so badly. And I hate that I try to change things and it doesn't work.
I hate talking to the very few people I have talked to and they tell me to 'pray about it'.
Well hell, I HAVE been praying about it. For a long damn time.
And not just once a day, but a lot.
And I wouldn't be writing this post, and feeling the way I am feeling, if something had happened.
Because it hasn't.
I am pissed off, and aggrieved, and emotional about it.
And my heart is hurting, and I don't have an effing clue what to do now.