Always

I have had a few people tell me that their life was indeed sad, because they didn't know what this tatoo meant. So, let me explain.

1. You guys really need to read the Harry Potter Series.

2. I realize that, Yes, I am a nerd. I'm okay with it.

and, now for the explanation.

The symbol in the A, is comprised of the 3 deathly hallows (again, read the books).

And the term Always, is what Severus says, when Albus asks him if he has loved Lily after all these years.

After she has died.

After everything that's happened.

His response?

"Always."  

This is the short clip.

And this is the longer one, that will explain it a little better.

In the books, which mainly spanned a period of 7 years, Severus was horrible. I despised him.

He was mean, arrogant, cruel even.

It's not until the very end, that you see what he had hidden for more than a decade.

See how tormented he had been.

And just how much he loved Lily, who he loved when he was a child, who chose someone else once they grew older, who then died too soon. And after all that happened, all the time, and all the pain...... he not only loved her, but was still in love with her.

Wonderful. Heartbreaking, but wonderful all the same. Alan Rickman (who portrayed Severus in the films) is an amazing actor. I think I'm coming to realize that this kind of undying love only happens in tragedies, or books and movies. And that's okay. Fairytales and love stories are what makes girls like me hopeful. Even if the realist inside me knows that it's never going to happen. I can be okay with that. I can live vicariously through the Romeo's and Severus' in films and writing. I can be outwardly hopeful while realizing inside that I may never have something like that. And it's wonderful because it IS a tragedy. The happily ever after never played out, those notes ended before they ever hit the chorus. Because Lily chose someone else. Because Lily died. Because Severus, for his whole life long, never had anyone else, never wanted anyone else, and no one else ever wanted him. That's real.

But I love this story, and I love Severus. I love his hopeless devotion, the endless love that he has for Lily, that wasn't returned, and can never be. I love how wonderful he is, even though no one but Albus realizes it. And I love and hate, that I didn't find all of it out, until the last chapter of his life.

 "After all this time?" asked Albus.

"Always".